Anguish...

  •   Fri, Oct 14 2011
  •   By Dr Pamela Jane Pinto

October 14, 2011

Anguish

A seething pain within my heart
a heaviness in my head
a darkness looming over me
making me wish I were dead...
 

There's nothing I can do to make it disappear -
talk to a friend...? drown in spirit or end this life that's bitter?
No...
if only I could've seen the signs early on,
or had I had the slightest of inkling...
I'd have done all I could and more, to prevent this tragedy from happening!

 
Why? How could you've even considered this act?
Why did you give up so soon...
without a thought of what it would do to me -
dying everyday bit by bit.

 
It infuriates me to know you did what you did
thoughtlessly taking your life, for what?!
A little squabble ? a li'l worry... a li'l dream that God fulfilled not?!
 

As a child you'd cough, I'd panic; run a temperature or hurt yourself... I'd cry
And one fine day you decide you can take it no more -
Accept defeat and DIE ?!
 

What you did is not fair, to me and to yourself,
if you were here right now, I'd tell you so
Oh but how I'd give anything to have you back
how i wish this were just a terrible dream...

 
Now all I have are but memories,
that I will take with me to my grave.
You killed me the day you took your own life -
How I wish you'd been a bit more brave....

 

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Comment on this article

  • Pamela, mangalore

    Sun, Oct 23 2011

    Thank you all for your constant support and appreciation. I am touched with all your comments. Thank you once again ...

    Pam

  • Irine Rebello, Mangalore

    Fri, Oct 21 2011

    Anguish.... really a heart touching poem. It seems that these are the real feelings of some of the parents who have lost their child due to suicide. People who decide to commit suicide think that this is a immediate and permanent solution to the problems. But the life of the loved ones becomes miserable and unbearable for the rest of their life as it is rightly explained in the poem, they die every second of their life. Let this poem be a enlightenment to the people who think in this line to take courage and face the difficulties of life with the support and co-operation of their loved ones. Good effort. Good poem. All the best.

  • geoffrey, hathill

    Fri, Oct 14 2011

    Answers to the queries posed by the writer are found in the poem itself. In short when emotional anguish/stress outweighs the survival instinct, humans resort to the permanent solution of a temporary problem which is known as ‘suicide’. Judas Iscariot’s perhaps is the first case to have been recorded in history (?)

  • Lance D' Costa, Mangalore / Abu Dhabi

    Fri, Oct 14 2011

    Anguish.....really a touching poem.. ...Keep writing Dr.Pamela!!!All the best.

  • Tauseef Ahmed M, Mangalore

    Fri, Oct 14 2011

    Good one madam....the expressing of pain and anguish is very touching...I liked it..Keep writing...God bless you...


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