October 14, 2011
A seething pain within my heart
a heaviness in my head
a darkness looming over me
making me wish I were dead...
There's nothing I can do to make it disappear -
talk to a friend...? drown in spirit or end this life that's bitter?
if only I could've seen the signs early on,
or had I had the slightest of inkling...
I'd have done all I could and more, to prevent this tragedy from happening!
Why? How could you've even considered this act?
Why did you give up so soon...
without a thought of what it would do to me -
dying everyday bit by bit.
It infuriates me to know you did what you did
thoughtlessly taking your life, for what?!
A little squabble ? a li'l worry... a li'l dream that God fulfilled not?!
As a child you'd cough, I'd panic; run a temperature or hurt yourself... I'd cry
And one fine day you decide you can take it no more -
Accept defeat and DIE ?!
What you did is not fair, to me and to yourself,
if you were here right now, I'd tell you so
Oh but how I'd give anything to have you back
how i wish this were just a terrible dream...
Now all I have are but memories,
that I will take with me to my grave.
You killed me the day you took your own life -
How I wish you'd been a bit more brave....
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